Wednesday, 16 May 2012

If I'm honest

If I'm honest, I would have never have chosen half of you as friends.  Some are self centred, wishing to be someone they're not.  Some are always sending mexed messages; one minute they're fine, the next they're having the world's biggest sulks.  Some are just liars, which can be seen from a mile off.  Basically, I wish I didn't know you.  I hate liars with a passion, yet some people seem to just do it subconsciously, without being able to see how much it hurts.  Well, if I'm honest, your lies are beginning to take their toll.  I don't think I can take it anymore.  And another one of you, always sending me mixed messages.  One minute we will be having a good conversation, the next you're with the 'others' and you're a completely different persom.  I become invisible, and you act as if I'm not there.  I don't think I can call you a friend anymore, because I don't feel I can confide in you about anything.  You have changed, and it isn't for the better.  I wish I was more confident, and able to stand up to you, but again, I can't. 

And as for my parents... the sooner I move out, the better.  I seriously can't cope anymore.  I think I need help, but I don't know who from, or how.  All I want is a shoulder to cry on, and a person to love me for who I am.  And by that I mean love, not when people say oh, but I love you.  What does that mean? It means that when they're nice, it's great, but as soon as the mood changes it's like everyone just says; 'who's Zoe?'

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