What Next?

I would love to carry on helping you, but what more can I do.  You have a severe problem only people close to you can deal with alongside you, but you have a barrier and don't let them in.  I can't stand here ready to help you anymore.  I have been there so much, but you just don't care.  So long as you are empty and self-controlled, nothing else matters.  I wish I could be a better person and stay strong for you, but there is no point.  You don't care, so long as you're OK, it doesn't matter that everyone ielse is hurting so much.  Hope you have a good future, as I clearly won't be spending it with you.